September 23, 2008
Itís not like I donít deserve this. Itís not like I donít have a million things to be guilty for; even more outside of what I did to you. I canít really blame you for being like this... I just wish it would stop. I wish I could change everything and I wish you would stop being so fucking hot and cold, acting like you want to see me and then either stand me up or act so unbothered that I donít even know if you care one tiny iota. And itís exactly what I did, just not so terrible.