May 20, 2009
Mili said, “you’ve had other relationships you thought would last forever and they didn’t.” That reminder: a knife sliding into and then out of my gut. She went on to say, “you need to ground yourself; you are not you.” That statement: the knife jammed into my kidney, resting there for a moment. No doubt she thinks she is helping; she is not a mean girl. But with friends who have this perspective, it’s really no wonder I am so doubtful. And no wonder I tossed and turned all night wondering if everything ends painfully, as it always has before.