March 31, 2005
Writing these pieces has been stabilizing. Because in my youth there was little time to process, I never realized the turbulent emotions I'd experience. Nonetheless, I tried to write with openness yet holding close to respect for my family and those who kindly helped us.
There's a thin line between sharing and whining. When I did whine it was because of embarrassment: clearly we weren't The Joneses. Because I searched for stability in politeness and being helpful I simultaneously curtailed my personality and sometimes falsely thought of myself as proper. I am now learning new ways of being.