The silence is what gets to me.  I love it and I hate it. 

The leading contenders for “what to do next” are:   part-time minimum wage job, babysitting in my home, school parapro, and hospital office worker. 

R asked if he should get a second job.  I said before he got a second job, I would get a first job.  And before I get a first job, the 18 year old will get a first job.  Besides, September 1, M starts school.  And I’m his ride until he gets his full license.  Maybe I should take a class there myself.