April 20, 2010
The limelight faded and I began my new life devoid of further childhood pursuits due to my newly acquired responsibilities. It was a role I was ill-prepared for, and we all paid the price. Those were black days. I struggled with the trauma, depression, guilt and helplessness. The "if only's" and "I should have's" plagued my life. I promised my mother I'd take care of everyone and I was failing miserably. My father began seeking new relationships and I felt betrayed. No more a child, but not an adult. Confusion and rebellion reigned painfully together.