Dinner at the U Garden tonight unleashed something in my mind. It's like the floodgates pushed open and suddenly all the doubt and fears came rushing through. It's not that I hadn't considered my future previously; I'm working to enter graduate school next autumn. I'm doing everything I should be doing. It's just that being faced with this group of accomplished strangers made me realize the crux of my problems. I can't socialize and I can't date without having some kind of real job. Seems obvious, but I hadn't quite realized how all my problems were intertwined like this.