Gary is a nice guy. Seriously, he is a very honest, decent human being. And that’s a rare find. On the other hand, if I didn’t look this way, would he be interested in me despite not having anything in common with me? So I’m not the only one being superficial here.

I don’t know. Can girls and guys ever be truly, purely, friends? This is a stupid question, and I’m sure the answer is yes. But I don’t know what it is about my relationships that make them so fucked up. At the moment, I strike a tenuous balance.