So, the elephant in the room refuses to leave. I guess I'm still 'unspoiled' and, it feels like such a burden!

My guyfriend presented me with the solution I'd found on my own a gazillion times. I need a guyfriend to become my boyfriend. That way, I'll be less warded and plain old afraid of the consequences.

I just, I'm stupid and I want a guy who'll make sweep me off my feet. Someone who'll bring such ease and excitement that I won't think. It happened once, I bared myself of all defenses and got epically hurt by a 'friend'.