Four: I feel pressured to, well, give it up. To be honest I get all freaked out when he insists, my every instinct is just against it right now.

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Last night the dumping happened. I thought it would be different, easier. I was so wrong. I do like him, and I was also falling for him. We both cried and hugged. It was...heartbreaking.

He asked me to think about it some more, he pleaded I changed my mind. I was firm, I was decided. I wanted out and surprisingly my busy schedule didn't show up on the reasons why.