July 20, 2011
People think I'm tough, scary even, not sure why, but I've heard it enough times now to accept that I exude this. And yet I feel so needy. Well, not needy toward the world, fuck the world, but always wanting to team up with one man, forever. And this makes me feel fragile and insecure wrt him. Thing is, the man (whoever he is at the time) will tell me I seem tough/scary too. That's the weird part. But I found someone tougher than me who understood finally what I need and gave it to me. I am lucky.