From here on out, everything †changes. I change. First with half of one, then with one, then with two, and before you know it Iíll be a completely new person and Iíll be composed and articulate and calm and know what to say, when to say it and how to say it. Iím scared, only, of losing myself, of becoming a shell of who I was, all that stereotypical crap but really, yes yes I am afraid, so terribly afraid! Which is why Iíve put it off so long, which is why Iím now here, barely able to hold on.