I’ve no answers for you, or for myself, even. I know I told you one thing but at the end of the day I just couldn’t picture myself there, with you, watching you with everyone and feeling so out of place, so separated from everything that makes me feel close and at peace with you.

Without that feeling,  I am lost. I can sit here and fight these feelings and reassure you with words but nothing is ever that simple, and I realize that.

You have your life, your friends, and I’m ready to accept I don’t belong in it.