March 9, 2013
Today I felt so useless and stupid. Being jobless has its perks and disadvantages and today the negative side won. I try to be positive, put in the right amount of effort into making myself useful, trusting that it will all be okay eventually. All these months that I've been job hunting will culminate in me finally being able to buy a box of gorgeous cupcakes without feeling guilty that I am spending money that is not mine. Today was spent with family. It's weird feeling simultaneously needed and judged. I just want today to be over. Please be over.