June 20, 2013
It's all so embarrassing now, how I told you then that I "sacrificed" time with other people and my "dreams" for time with you. It's so juvenile and funny now, remembering how I believed I could get you back by making you feel guilty and more wanted, or maybe less wanted. I couldn't see the plain fact then, that you just didn't really want me in your life anymore, that it's not that you didn't have anything to offer -- but that you didn't want to offer anything anymore. Everything looks clearer in hindsight, yeah? Sometimes I like how time operates.