July 27, 2013
It was alternately sunny and rainy today. Realization: I have wasted so much time being fearful. I keep deciding, new day, new start, but there is resistance or maybe just plain laziness, or maybe fear is doing such a good job. My sister-in-law gave birth to Brysen today and I spent the first half of the day looking at his picture, tearing up. You are so beautiful, baby boy, and I hope someday you will understand what your arrival means to everyone who loves you. You were born on a Saturday, baby boy, and you make us brave.