September 7, 2013
She told me she'd be by my side, however this turns out. But instead of feeling reassured, my shields shot up. A part of me identified her as a threat, and no matter how hard I tried to overcome my own defenses, they would not let me reconfigure. I told myself over and over to get up, fix myself, use recover, cast time lapse - every skill and spell I knew that might bring me back the metastable state I was in some time ago. Futile. It was inevitable - metastability itself was a nasty thing. Just one grain for an avalanche.