September 12, 2013
Accidentally, I took a larger dose of Ritalin. Except it wasn't by accident. It's a desperation that builds up, the worry that I will daze out and hide in my isolation corner. I'd rather have high blood pressure and anxiety than to keep retreating to a void.The methylphenidate, a chemical structure built similar to cocaine, brings everything to the front. The truths, nasty or not. I don't like where I live, my job, but I can handle it. Barely, but I do. I should've done more drugs, I should've slept around more. I should've gone wayward at some time.