November 19, 2013
Matt, in his being a distant--non-existent, really--entity in my life, has given me comfort. I know it speaks volumes when one gets comfort from something that is essentially not there. What of the actual people who actually love me? I hate that word, "actually." But I like using it! Same with "suddenly." Anyway. I like veering off-topic because I like denying things. Matt. I should let go of this infatuation because Matt seems to be okay where he is. He doesn't need the imaginary help of a stalker who's too afraid to ask for his name.