November 21, 2013
It's Thursday. I have to decide today to stop bugging Matt. I feel like even if he doesn't know of my existence, I am bugging him in some parallel universe, and that in his dreams he sees this shadowy creature lurking and...you know what? All I really want to say is even I am annoyed at myself for hiding, for doing this secret thing, when it should be easy to put myself out there and risk rejection. If I do then I will know for sure, right? I won't be wondering. It will be hard, yes, but worth it.