May 27, 2014
I should take a nap but I seem to be afraid to, afraid the conductor will and grab me while I am sleeping perhaps. I have an interview later today. I am making little moves to prepare to sell the house. I am a little nervous about that. Each of these micro moves requires decisions that have longer-term consequences. I find myself getting reactive, fearful, and querulous. I act like an old man now sometimes. I think life is for the young. Life is for the mentally healthy. Life is for the emotionally secure. Three strikes and you are out.