January 18, 2015
I found a song I stumbled upon back in 2007 after a break up. Boards of Canada, Dayvan Cowboy. A melodic, intangible sound, soothing in its obscurity. The hardest relationships to get over are those in which I'm left being the dreamer. Happy songs turn into soft lullabies with dark undertones. I look pensively within, uncomfortable with what I see. Restless with the thought of being alone. So I do what it takes to have someone over, to experience that excitement again, looking out my bedroom window at the parking lot below. Heart beating in anticipation for that temporary fix.