February 19, 2015
She's trying to find it in her, the way she used to feel for certain people and places. But most of it seems to have gone now, there isn't even a memory of what was once. And is this why people hold on too tight sometimes? Because there is a lot of details that doesn't have the capacity to stay? She thought, 12 years ago, that she would know specific feelings all her life, that contentment, that peace, that confused calm. She was sure. She's looking at the past. It's a beautiful blur. She readies herself to wipe it off.