July 4, 2015
This is the most important understanding I've arrived at in the last five years: If you concern yourself over why someone wasn't hurt when you intentionally hurt them, then you're concerning yourself with the wrong thing. See, it ate at me for too long, did he not love me enough to give me the power to cause him pain? Because, only those you love can hurt you? And I seemed to have none of that effect on him. I always just thought there was something wrong with me. It took me years to realize I was being selfish.