August 27, 2015
He has gotten used to the bad news that when he was presented with a good news that invalidates the bad news, he was lost and had to sit down a good 10 hours looking out the passing trains, just trying to understand how he would go about his days now that the bad thing he had been expecting, and accepting, to happen is never going to come. So this is how it's like to feel relief? There's also a puzzling disappointment, as if all those days he'd been distraught and brave were for nothing. Finally, he manages to smile.