September 3, 2015
There is this: Wake up; a long, lonely, agonizing-do-not-talk-to-me time before coffee; happy time during coffee; nice time after coffee; shitty time craving for coffee again; a wonderful time during second coffee; an okay time after coffee; sad, sad time craving for a third cuppa; repeat for infinity -- a vicious cycle. A loop that both enlivens and kills. Today I am overreacting to everything because I might have had 20 cups of coffee and something else today. How many times have I mentioned the word "today" today? It's a nice word, yeah? I like today.