October 12, 2015
In another time, he is still wooing me. Been five years now. In that time I'm not mean to him. Kind but firm, accommodating but just-the-right-amount cold. I don't make fun of him behind his back. I don't disappoint him with my immaturity. I don't hurt him. Here, now, I keep my distance and am honest about what I do not feel. It's clear to both of us what will and will not happen. There are reasons why he is relentless, he says, someday I might understand. In this time, I think I am falling for him.