December 2, 2015
Realizing that I've never been the one with the big need that required coming round and accommodating and adjusting. I was always the one who confronted my misgivings, challenged my fears, came round, accommodated and adjusted. Which may be why it feels so odd and "demanding" to me now. I have to convince myself that I have a right to say I want this, even if I'm not sure how it will all work out. As though I have to be certain of the outcome in order to be justified in making my appeal. We have some talking to do.