February 20, 2016
She lies awake, expecting an earthquake. This is how she lulls herself to sleep everyday. She doesn't have a plan for when the quake does come, maybe she should start thinking about that? But how dependable are plans? She comforts herself that expectation is already half the battle. Expectation is getting ready. Why does she expect the worst all the time? She's trying out a new thing after getting burned by a lot of the good expectations she had. When she's asleep though, will the quake wake her? She expects so. This is better, she reasons, than sleeping without worry.