March 5, 2016
She thinks, "Well, as long as I admit that someday I would have to change my ways, then I'm fine." She trusts that this is enough. A "someday" is not a real thing, she knows, but she convinces herself that by merely acknowledging that change is needed, that she is actually making a change in her life, without actually doing anything. She knows this, too. She knows a lot of things and one of those is that she would have to wake up one day realizing how much she's accumulated and lost. She'd look around and know it's too late.