July 7, 2017
I've never been more irritated in all my life. (As a side note, I've used the phrase "I've never been more ______ in my life" more often in this year than I have in any other year in the past.) I hate feeling like I'm not allowed to complain. Be grateful you're alive. Be grateful it wasn't worse. Be grateful you have people who love you. I am grateful, yeah. But I don't see why I am still alive. I don't see what the point is. I don't see why they love me when I do nothing for them. I don't reach out. I don't keep in touch. Why do you people love me? I don't get it.