July 13, 2017
Yesterday felt like a kind of turning point. I realized that God is in control of my life. I never did rule my own world, although for a long time I had the illusion of control. I thought that if I constructed a nice, safe environment for myself, I would never have to do anything hard or could get through life with relative ease. What a lie. Life is intrinsically hard, and my little construction has been falling to pieces. Somehow I am managing, I guess by the grace of God. It is God, not me, that is pulling me along.