May 19, 2018
I can either go on along this path or find another. Once I decide on what to do, there is also a need to keep myself from going back to this path. This here is comfortable, predictable, safe. I have a compulsion to check people's age. I get anxious when someone is in their early 20s and have their life seemingly in order. It's calming when someone is in their late 30s and...oh you get the drift. This is a dangerous path. You know how it's unsafe to give something a name because then you will get too familiar?