February 19, 2019
I admit there's a significant amount of time I allot to thinking about you. You scare me because you listen to every word I say. If I mumble, you ask -- always -- about what I just said. And you respond or react to it. And I feel so seen. Do you understand why this is frightening? It's new and unknown and finite. Have people not learned that starting something results in having something that ends? It's both cowardly and wise to avoid it. If I think about it, and only think about it, it stays abstract. There but not there. Transient.