March 30, 2019
(Continued...) It's hard to talk about my father without sounding whiny. I've agreed with my mother to honor my father, what he has done (and is doing) for the family, and to refrain from focusing on what's lacking. It took years of talk therapy for me to accept that it is what it is. The affection I need from Papa will never be a reality, and it's not because he's a bad person, he just doesn't have it in him. It's not like he never tries. Still, it's an everyday hurt. Everyday: Will my father notice and love me today?