October 24, 2019
There's been a sort of lifting these past few weeks. Main reason I can think of is that Ma and I are talking again, and the grey cloud of not being in good terms with her is now gone. I can go on months not reaching out. I don't know how my parents take it, I almost don't want to know anyway. They know to leave me alone during these times, and to be honest that adds to the sadness. But our choices have consequences, and I've learned to take the bad with the good. Point is: I'm happy now!