October 1, 2019
Ten years ago in the early months after Jang and I broke up, my mind was in overdrive about how to make things "right." I (unadvisedly) wished something would happen that would warrant me to demand for her attention. Some time then I figured in a minor car accident. I was happy to have a reason to reach out. Expectedly, she replied with a cursory "I'm glad you're well." Nothing of the sort I was hoping for. I was holding on to the possibility that if I could get her to worry about me she'd love me again.