December 15, 2019
It's frightening how he doesn't feel affection for people who used to be important to him. It's frightening because imagining other people feel this way about him hurts in a way he can't describe. How does love become this unreachable thing? Like someone put it in a closet, and that closet has climbed a wall by itself. But then there's no ladder, as if it was meant to be that way from the beginning. It's there then it disappears and we are supposed to accept it. It's frightening, how he just watches, how he knows he can easily walk away.