May 21, 2020
Ma. Sometimes I refuse to do things because of prior failures. Now I know I'm not alone in this but it sure feels lonely most times, especially when it's something to do with being of service to other people. Too abstract? Ok, for example: I'm a bad judge of quantity in general. If you ask me to buy food for 3 people, I'll either buy 10 people's worth or 1.5 people's worth. Way off the mark. So I end up avoiding that responsibility for years, then I do it and fuck up again. So. A cycle. Help. Need help.