December 2, 2020
What is different now is that I have to go out and seek social interactions whereas previously every situation was crowded and busy and I had to find peace and solitude. What started as a joy developed into an absence and became almost sensory deprivation. Without other people most information that was dispersed to be absorbed by osmosis is absent. At the time, whole slices and layers, or chunks of the sensory data received by touch or smell or sound would be discarded. Most we ignored and filtered out, even expunged it from memory as if it hadnít been received.