December 7, 2020
I havenít learned to wait patiently and yet I can appear calm in the process. It is my internal machinations that make the time pass tediously and this I have never learned to accept. Accepting that time must pass seems unacceptable when I need to know the outcome of an event before the next steps can be planned or taken, is a torture. I am not built to just barrel ahead regardless, prepared to backstep and correct where plans are fraughted. It is my belief in an ideal world, one that does not include corrections, that keeps me here, waiting.