December 20, 2020
I try to resist the temptation of invisibility, the slow fading away that allows me to let go, to not impact on the present, that helps me release my hold on the future. The attraction is counterintuitive as I have always been forward-looking. For me, the past is gone and forgotten, full of mistakes made and lessons learned and not something to dwell on. Over time this gradual retreat from reality has become a persist trend and irreversible. I am concerned about my leaving. I think it unlikely it is noticed by others. Noticing an absence takes a special skill.