December 24, 2020
This year seems to be arriving at the end joylessly with gritted teeth. No effort is being made to be happy as every effort goes towards surviving this trial. I have no desire to connect with friends or join with others in communal events. But this malaise goes further Ė I find I am wishing not only that I give up communal ways of living, those social habits and behaviours, but that everyone I know does the same also and when they donít my judgemental inner critic rises to the surface. I donít what this year to change me like this.