March 23, 2002
disenchantment sums it up. she was supposed to be excited to be here. this makes me wonder why she's acting strange. like she wants to crawl back into her shoebox, head inside her shell. i didn't poke her with anything, throw anything at her that she shouldn't have expected. now she's fibbing. i wish she would just tell me the truth. going home early wouldn't have hurt my feelings had it not been under the pretense that she had made an effort to tell me, word for word. why? to keep the façade of a great friendship? was she disappointed?