March 1, 2006
I'm not quite sure why I'm doing this. Maybe it's to stay sane and give myself some much needed purpose so that I stop looking at the dark void that is ever present. I have always loved to write, but find it knows how to reach into my soul, usually camouflaged so carefully, and jostle it into the light. My secret life is in the payback phase, an equal and opposite reaction to happiness. Of course, the greater the happiness, the harder the payback, but so slow. Trickling that vivid wild ecstasy from my life in deep tender sobbing furrows.