March 20, 2006
Writing this retrospectively I can see that this was when I was starting to get ill, but as always I just hoped it would pass and I could carry on as normal. I managed my smiles and my usual happy demeanour so nobody would have known. I am truly excellent at hiding things, which is probably not a good thing in the long run, but have so many years of doing it I don't know how to change. Only show things which are absolutely necessary and hold the rest close. Why? Because I am afraid of revealing my true self.