June 18, 2002
I let him in. Now what do I do? I'm not used to letting in, only keeping out. Is it too late to change my mind and ask him to leave? So far he's remaining pretty quiet, but I can still feel the ripple his very existence is sending through my life. Maybe he doesn't know yet that I've let him in and I can pretend it never happened. But from the smile on his face, I suspect he knows full well what I have done. And he likes it. It's what he's always wanted. What do I do now?