December 26, 2002
recently I’ve been trying to define what happiness is. I understood today. it was a frail, fleeting moment. you can be told how to obtain happiness, but that’s hard to except when you are used to living your life a certain way. I rely on others far too much. I felt what it was like to trust in me. just for a moment though. it was scary, but it felt different. there are no words to explain the difference. if you’ve felt it, you know what I’m talking about. I’m morphing without the luxury of a cocoon. not so pretty.