December 9, 2002
Sometimes I feel like the world is shouting at me, and I can't hide from the screaming anywhere. The noise hurts my head, until I feel like driving my fist through a wall. But that wouldn't stop the screaming. "Endure, damn you! Endure! Be strong! Keep going at all costs! It doesn't matter how much pain you're in, you have to keep going anyway. Because God gave you this life, damn it, and you'd better be grateful. Shut up, stop complaining, and keep going. And smile. Smile, damn it, whether you're happy or not! Smile! Endure!" Shut up, damn you!