As the story goes Jacob wrestled with an angel all night – suffered a hip injury – to get a blessing. Jacob had ambition. I've never trusted people with ambition. Anyone willing to do anything to get what they want puzzle me. It's not that I won't go the extra mile, stick until the end… choose your metaphor…. insert homily.
I've found that the trick is "wanting what you get when you get what you want." And it's not that I fear failure or disappointment (any more than the next person). Nor do I believe all effort futile.
Could I be content?