March 27, 2003
So we're going to move forward like married people do. He asked me if I was still "in love" with him. He's obviously still "in love" with me so I guess it's possible to stay "in love." I'll just keep up the pretense like so many others: Sparing him by staying or going? Then there's the object of my passion, something about my soul, my spirit, touching me like that: Mystical. All will hit the fan inevitably leaving me with neither; so be it. I've discovered a bit of mysticism in myself: those little yellow flowers raining down on me.